In Memory

Well today would have been our daughter's EDD if she hadn't been frozen for almost 3 months. She was conceived August 1 which means July 18 would have been in the first two weeks of pregnancy (since they start it 2 weeks before conception) if she hadn't been frozen. So this gestation truly seems like an entire year. That also means that today would have been the due date of the three triplets we lost in August. So today I am remembering the 6 little ones we lost 8 months ago. We know all 7 were still alive on August 4 when the triplets were transferred back to me. We have no idea how many days after that the triplets made it, and the RE didn't tell us exactly how many days the other 3 made it in the lab, but we know they had stopped growing sometime before August 7 when our little girl was frozen. Of course the sadness I feel over losing these 6 little lives is not as strong as it would be if there wasn't a little girl kicking inside me, but still I grieve for her siblings, particularly the three little ones I saw on the ultrasound on August 4 within my uterus. Of course technically none of these were lost as a miscarriage since most likely they never implanted. In a natural cycle if conception took place but not implantation, the couple would never know about the little life which existed for a short period of time. That's very different with IVF. You know from the day of conceptioon of the existence of the little ones, and in fact some have testing done on that first day and already know the gender of each one! We didn't have that done so we don't know how many were brothers and how many were sisters of the girl I am carrying now. I am thankful though that God performed a miracle and allowed this one little baby to keep growing. This day would be a million times sadder if we had lost all seven babies. This photo was taken yesterday (wearing one of the maternity tops my parents got me for my bday) at 27w4d.

I have to say the weather here has been GORGEOUS lately. The high yesterday was about 75 degrees which is just perfect IMHO, and thankfully they finally adjusted the thermostat in my classroom and it was finally comfortable (not a sauna any more PTL) on Monday. I had brought a fan to class on Monday, but I didn't need it thankfully. I chalked it up as the same type of thing as if you wash the car then it will rain. If you bring a fan to class then they will fix the thermostat.