Although kept down her breakfast and lunch yesterday, dinner came back up as I was just about to brush her teeth a little before 7pm last night. Thankfully most of it landed on the linolium which made it easier to clean up. This has been quite the bug!! She had two doses of the seasonal flu shot and one dose of the H1N1 shot, but they didn't seem to help with whatever she caught. Last night was again a rough night for both kiddos. Ian slept in the Nap Nanny until midnight, but then that was it for the night. He was with me for the duration. Nadia was up many, many times. Paul fed her some applesauce at 5am and put her back down at 5:30 and wonder of wonders she then slept until 8:00am. I fed her half a bagel this morning for breakfast. I'm hoping she'll keep ALL her meals down today. In light of the rough night, we stayed home from church this morning.
Last night I wasn't feeling like a very good Mommy. I felt rather selfish as I realized that one of the main reasons I wanted Nadia to feel better was so she'd go back to sleeping through the night so that Paul and I could get more sleep. Here she is coughing and crying all night long, and I'm worried about how much sleep I'm getting? Similarly, I found myself actually feeling upset with Ian last night because he was reverting back to a prior habit of not nursing very well (just falling asleep on me but then if I put him down he'd wake right back up again). I had attempted to nurse him for almost an hour. I knew he hadn't consumed as much as he usually does in one nursing session, yet I was very annoyed when he woke up maybe 10 minutes later wanting to be fed again. I remember thinking something like "buddy, I am very willing to get up at midnight to feed you if you'll actually nurse, but...". How pathetic is that to feel upset at an 8 week old baby? I was also beating myself up over Nadia's hair. I kept thinking why on earth did I wait this long to give her bangs??? The Lord knew I needed some encouragement today so he allowed today to be the day that Ian had his first social smiles!!! He's been having spontaneous smiles since almost the beginning (often in his sleep), but this morning was the first time I witnessed him smiling "on purpose." The first time was ironically just before he was about to begin nursing. He looked up at me and smiled. My heart melted, and I didn't care at all how little sleep I've been getting lately. He has smiled at me many other times today, and I was able to catch a few smiles on camera! Enjoy!
Although kept down her breakfast and lunch yesterday, dinner came back up as I was just about to brush her teeth a little before 7pm last night. Thankfully most of it landed on the linolium which made it easier to clean up. This has been quite the bug!! She had two doses of the seasonal flu shot and one dose of the H1N1 shot, but they didn't seem to help with whatever she caught. Last night was again a rough night for both kiddos. Ian slept in the Nap Nanny until midnight, but then that was it for the night. He was with me for the duration. Nadia was up many, many times. Paul fed her some applesauce at 5am and put her back down at 5:30 and wonder of wonders she then slept until 8:00am. I fed her half a bagel this morning for breakfast. I'm hoping she'll keep ALL her meals down today. In light of the rough night, we stayed home from church this morning. 
Last night I wasn't feeling like a very good Mommy. I felt rather selfish as I realized that one of the main reasons I wanted Nadia to feel better was so she'd go back to sleeping through the night so that Paul and I could get more sleep. Here she is coughing and crying all night long, and I'm worried about how much sleep I'm getting? Similarly, I found myself actually feeling upset with Ian last night because he was reverting back to a prior habit of not nursing very well (just falling asleep on me but then if I put him down he'd wake right back up again). I had attempted to nurse him for almost an hour. I knew he hadn't consumed as much as he usually does in one nursing session, yet I was very annoyed when he woke up maybe 10 minutes later wanting to be fed again. I remember thinking something like "buddy, I am very willing to get up at midnight to feed you if you'll actually nurse, but...". How pathetic is that to feel upset at an 8 week old baby? I was also beating myself up over Nadia's hair. I kept thinking why on earth did I wait this long to give her bangs??? The Lord knew I needed some encouragement today so he allowed today to be the day that Ian had his first social smiles!!! He's been having spontaneous smiles since almost the beginning (often in his sleep), but this morning was the first time I witnessed him smiling "on purpose." The first time was ironically just before he was about to begin nursing. He looked up at me and smiled. My heart melted, and I didn't care at all how little sleep I've been getting lately. He has smiled at me many other times today, and I was able to catch a few smiles on camera! Enjoy!
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I can remember having the same thought when I was breastfeeding Tyler. He would get up all night long and I was so tired. I would also get upset when he did not nurse enough and would get right back up. Don't think you are alone in those thoughts.
Whenever Henry gets his trademark cough, I'm good for about six hours, and then I fantasize about tossing him out of the house because it tends to grate on the nerves. Dave always laughs because apparently I get a certain look when I've reached that point.
Everyone feels that way sometimes.
Oh, and Ian is so cute with his big smiles! So is Nadia in her cheerleading outfit. Adorable!
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